Interests:Writing and reading Fanfics. Reading MANGA, any sort, BUT it has to have romance and a good plot of course. ^-~ Drawing...Hanging out with my friends, listening to music, laughing...=P playing games...playing the violin...I love it! [But i got a lot to learn....like how to get rid of my anxiety of playing in front of an audience. (my fingers slide of the violin and starts to sweat ^^")] WATCHING T.V. lol...
:-) Expertise:Writing fanfics...for now. I plan to be a kiddie doctor. ^-^ Occupation:Student
I'm supposed to be doing Ap Lit summer assignment but I've been getting distracted, doing my daily 2 Dialectical journals. Senior year is here...and I'm so not ready for it. I anticipated this year soo much but now I dont want to even start it. College apps, tests, financial aid...it's giving me a headache. And then there are my freaking parents...gah they get me so damn mad, especially when it comes to colleges. They want me to go to some loser college and get a loser education there. When will they damn let me have my freaking freedom? I want to go where I want to go! Do they even consider? They put their reputation before my choice! How will bengali people talk? How will they react when she goes out and live on her own? It's maddening. I wish they weren't so closeminded. ::Sigh::
I'm so glad that I have something to do over the summer otherwise I would get mad. Thank goodness I'm working in a lab, internship! I love it there! HIV research yo! =D It's so cool. The people there are nerds, obviously, but they are cool nerds. They all have different personalities and some of them remind me of high school kids. =P Everyone is patient and nice. Seriously, I think my personality is better and more enthusiastic because of them. XD I get paid at the end but I don't care! My parents do though..."when are you getting paid? When are you getting paid?" T___T Goodness...I think money is the only thing that matters to them. Sure we're in hard times but what about the experience I'm getting? A high school student getting to work with ACTUAL doctors and graduate students in important developmental research? Conducting experiments and getting advice straight out of former college students? No other school has this program, I'm so grateful my school does and grateful that they'll let me work during the year. =]
Earthquake!
There was a 5.4 earthquake today. It was the first earthquake I ever felt. I was sleeping during the Northridge one XD so I didnt notice. Wow it was so funny how it happened! Me, Alan, and Gabby were organizing tubes at a desk and me and Alan were goofing around I guess. And then the table started shaking and I'm like alan stop it! And he's like stop what? And I spin around in my chair and I see the other STAR student going down and my mentor going down as well to hide underneath a desk and then the grad students who didnt have a desk stand in a position that people stand in when they are trying to be balance. I turn back around and I see alan underneath a table. Me and gabby are like and then we realize an earthqauke is happening! XD and then gabby goes down under the table and I'm about to crouch down but the shaking stops. I'm sitting in my chair and people who were down on the floor still stay's down. I get up and I walk over and say its over XD you can get up and they sit for a moment and then get up. Later on i hear Alan heard our mentor say get down! But i didnt hear. oh well...thank goodness it wasn't a huge earthquake. Who knows what could have happened. Tubes flying everywhere, a grad student was doing gel electrophoresis, and like the name suggests, it has to do with electricity, it coulda shocked her if it fell and other grad students were working with harmful bacteria. We have chemicals high up in shelves and they could have easily hit where me, gabby and alan were sitting. Just thinking about the circumstances....::shudders:: What was really weird was that the lab safety people came like an hour later asking if we were alright...and we all had a kind of look. Talk about a slow response...
I wanna write more. Hm...I think I'll write like a page to my story. ::Sigh:: I'll try.
Every day is so tiring.
Things in my life thats happning / happened:
- Science fair is going on
- Getting a C in math. Raised it up, from a D. First time ever this happened. Never had a C or D before. It's a very tramautic experience.
- 15 report card is coming out. @___@
- Can't choose.. Ap readiness for Chem or sat. skool for math... I'm doing good in math now... doing bad in chem...gosh. my grades are always an inverse of each other. if one class is going up, then another is going down. -___-"
- Otaku club responsibility
- Going to Bangladesh this winterbreak. Getting ready for it.
Oy it's amazing how you see this person one day, everyday in one way the other and then the next day, you find out he's dead. It's like a huge weight fell on you and now you're forced to cry. It's a time where all you can think of is omigosh I didn't get to do this with him or I so regret what I did and the infamous one...denial.
It's a crappy feeling.
Makes you cry.
I HATE crying.
It's a wasteful emotion cause it shows your vulnerability and it throws other people off when you start crying cause they see a side of you they never saw. And it gets worse: they start crying alongside with you or ask "hey, you okay?" Not only does it make ME feel awkward but it makes the people around me feel awkward cause they got to try and console this crybaby (me).
I cried. Especially when we had a memorial for him.
My job was to help plan this memorial and bring in things in anyway possible. I wasn't really thinking to attend because I knew I would start crying. But I did go anyways cause Ms. Camacho just had to say "Thank you very much for taking time out of your own time to help us with this. I really appreciate this because if you weren't here and along with the other kids, I would have not been able to pull this off because you guys knew him"
Jeez.
And so I went. And helped prepare the powerpoint. Then out of no where Ms. Thrower comes and hands me pink roses to me and Jackie to give to the mother. We waited and waited and then this damn guy comes up and starts talking to us and saying stuff about him and then I just had to share my experience with him and then BOOM. I break down. waaaah waaah waaah...
When I saw the mother...
My gosh...she looked so much like him.
::Sigh::
And so, one by one, people with roses were told to go up and talk about him or share an experience with him and then it was my friend and my turn (we wanted to go together) and we talked about him and oh boy...we then had to give the roses to the mother and man... gosh it was hard.
In the end, they showed one of his favorite animes, Naruto.. hehe... but then I had to leave cause my dad was here and we had to go pick up my brother.
I was sleeping during the Northridge one XD so I didnt notice. Wow it was so funny how it happened! Me, Alan, and Gabby were organizing tubes at a desk and me and Alan were goofing around I guess. And then the table started shaking and I'm like alan stop it! And he's like stop what? And I spin around in my chair and I see the other STAR student going down and my mentor going down as well to hide underneath a desk and then the grad students who didnt have a desk stand in a position that people stand in when they are trying to be balance. I turn back around and I see alan underneath a table. Me and gabby are like 
and then we realize an earthqauke is happening! XD and then gabby goes down under the table and I'm about to crouch down but the shaking stops. I'm sitting in my chair and people who were down on the floor still stay's down. I get up and I walk over and say its over XD you can get up 
